Currently Playing Kingdom Hearts By Various Artists Simple and Clean see related

This song makes me smile, even though some of the lyrics are quite silly.  I still very much enjoy it. 

I am getting increasingly depressed about the departure of all my senior friends, particularly Augusta - my dearest, weirdest friend.  I am hoping that she won't go to far away as I will be requiring regular visits from her to insure my sanity. 

I'm in the process of trying to find a job for the summer, followed by an apartment.  The apartment part is relatively easy, it's the job part that's giving me trouble.  I would really like to do something that I don't completely loathe, and I would prefer not to get paid the rock bottom amount.  Maybe that's asking too much . . .

Greek Sing was fun last week, although far too long and uncomfortable.  The addition of the comedian was a smart move.  He kept things moving a little more smoothly.  However, they might want to consider investing in more body-friendly seating before they spend all of their money on a comedian next year. 

What am I forgetting?  Oh, the birthday!  T'was much much fun.  I ate far too much cake and received way too many presents, but I think I have recovered by now.  I also got my new driver's license, which was perhaps the most exciting part.  As anyone who knows me well is aware, I hated my old driver's license with the burning of a million suns.  Yuck. 

This entry is pretty boring, I think.  I have been going through long, drawn out, inner-reflections, but for some reason they aren't showing up in this post.  Next time perhaps. 

I don't have anything if I don't have you - Vast (muchos gracias to Amber for introducing me! )

Currently Reading The Time Traveler's Wife (Harvest Book) By Audrey Niffenegger see related

Jeni gave me this book for my birthday and I am quite enjoying it.  I   Jeni. 

I somehow injured my foot today and now am hobbling around in a very pathetic fashion.  Let's hope it isn't anything lasting.  I am prone to whining when in pain. 

My birthday is on Wednesday and I am very much looking forward to it.  Don is coming up to celebrate, and Augusta and I will get to play Christmas and exchange presents since her birthday is the same day.  I am expecting jolly good times. 

I really should be writing some feature stories, but I am blogging and eating ice cream instead.  I have been trying to break my sugar addiction lately, but since it is my birthday week, I am splurging at every available opportunity.  I don't really mind writing feature stories, but at the same time, I really don't want to do it.  I feel inclined to do other things . . . like read my new book, or watch some tv reruns, or read movie reviews on imdb.  All of my motivation has gone out the window. 

I suppose I should work.  But I'm getting better at this updating thing, maybe I will write again soon. 

Currently Playing Accidentally in Love [UK CD] By Counting Crows see related

I am the eternal Counting Crows fan.  No matter what else changes in my life, I will always have my love for them.  It's nice to have some consistency. 

So, I haven't posted in an incredibly long time.  There's a lot to catch up on.  But first, I was just looking at my last post from January, and I realized that my opinions have changed on something.  After a lot of reflection, it occurs to me that maybe that friendship that I lost wasn't such a great friendship after all.  I do miss it sometimes, that I won't deny . . . it was the first really close friendship I ever formed in college, and there were a lot of fun times involved.  But in all reality, it was lacking in some things that I now know are really important to me.  I think the other person would agree.  But I don't hold any animosity, and if we can be friendly to one another, that's fine with me.  I know we'll never be friends again, and that's fine, but, in the wonderful wisdom of Jena, I don't want to die with any enemies.  So whether she has bad feelings or not, I don't, and I'm glad that I don't.  Now, on to more important things.

February was rather busy, with Valentine's Day and Tifiny's wedding.  The wedding was amazing.  Tifiny looked absolutely gorgeous and it was obvious that she and Esteban are completely in love.  I know that it's hard for her to be in California, so far away from all of her old friends and family, but I also know that she'll be okay.  Augusta is going to see her in May and I'm sure that will be a huge help. 

Valentine's Day was the best I've ever had in my life, actually.  It's not usually my favorite holiday (if you even want to call it that), but it is nice to be made to feel special every once in while, and Don definitely made me feel special. 

I think March was pretty uneventful.  Classes, classes, classes . . . blah, blah, blah.  I am so sick of Concord that I can't even stand it.  I'm just ready to move on with my life - go to graduate school or law school or whatever might be ahead, and be done with undergraduate work.  I could easily graduate in December of next year, but then what would I do in the spring?  Most graduate programs that I've looked at only begin in the fall, so I couldn't start graduate school early.  Yuck.  Plus, next year is going to be rough because Jena and Candi and all of my other English major friends are graduating, not to mention Augusta.  Sometimes she's the only thing about campus life that keeps me sane. 

I've been trying to figure out what to do with myself this summer, and I'm *hopefully* working toward a solution.  I just don't want to work some job that is going to bore me to death.  I'd really like to enjoy my summer, to spend some time with my family and go someplace nice with Don for a while.  We'll see if that happens.  Right now it just looks like work and work. 

Florida looms on the horizon - my mom, step-dad and I are headed there in May, right after finals.  My grandmother lives there and has been having a lot of health problems over the past few years, so we're going to visit and spend time with her.  I wish Jeni could go, but her hellion children are too demanding to release her for a long weekend. 

Birthdays are also quickly approaching . . . hurrah!  In a little over a week Augusta and I will be celebrating our day of birth and I will finally get a new driver's license!    The one I have now has possibly the ugliest picture of me ever taken, and I have been looking forward to getting rid of it for many a year.  April 13th will be a happy day indeed. 

I think that's all the catching up that is needed for the moment.  I've noticed recently that, with the exception of the ones with "I," I use very few contractions in my sentences.  Blast you English classes and all of your grammatical detriments.  I can no longer be casual, even in a blog!   

Currently Playing Chasing Daylight By Sister Hazel Your Mistake see related

"I wanna be everything except for your mistake"

Wow . . . four whole months since I last posted.  What a lazy writer I've been.  Actually I truly have.  All of these aspirations to become a writer and I can't even muster the imaginative abilities to write a blog entry.  It's sad really. 

So what has happened in my life over the past four months?  I suppose we'll start the list at the beginning.  I lost a friend, a good one, I was sad for a long time.  On the other hand, I've gotten a lot closer to Augusta, who has been a friend since I came to Concord, but definitely not to the degree that she is now.  She's a very kind, supportive person, and I guess those are the kind of friends I need.  First term was probably the most difficult one I've had since I've been at Concord, in every way.  My life changed a lot, and I felt more uncertain about myself academically than I do normally.  But I made it through and things are beginning to look a lot better. 

I moved twice last semester, and now I'm on the 3rd floor, which I initially disliked, but now I don't mind so much.  It's quiet and peaceful and I have a really sweet new suitemate.  I won a writing contest (yaye!)  and $1,000 as a result.  I'm also taking an independent study in Creative Writing this semester and we're going to work a lot on publishing, so hopefully *fingers crossed* something will end up in print somewhere at some point, even if it is a magazine with a circulation of 10. 

Thanksgiving and Christmas went pretty well.  Better than last year, in my opinion, although they were somewhat strange.  My divorced parents shared their first holidays in four years, and it was a little awkward for me at first.  I've realized since then, however, that there are a lot of things that happened in my past that I have been hanging on to relentlessly, and now it's time to let them go.  Trust me, it's not an easy process. 

Don came in for the holidays (both of them), which made things easier and more relaxed for me.  I was really emotional and it was good to have the support of someone who isn't so involved in the "divorce situation."  He helped me to look at things more objectively.  We also spent New Year's Eve and Day together.  The holiday season was generally quite good. 

I miss my parents and my sister a lot, and often wish that Jeni wasn't so far away.  But I also know, even when she doesn't want to admit it, that North Carolina is good for her. 

I guess that's all.  This semester has been a pretty slow one so far.  I haven't been baraged with homework and I don't have a job.  I have no clue what I'm going to do this summer or with the rest of my life, for that matter, but right now I feel okay with that.  I don't have to decide right now.  I have another year of college and two years of graduate school to figure it out.  If I don't know by then, people can be concerned.  Until then, let's just allow it to be a mystery. 

Currently Playing Parachutes By Coldplay Everything's Not Lost see related

I have been so stressed about a particular situation for the past few weeks that it has honestly been driving me crazy.  Now I realize that there's no point in worrying about it so much, because there's not a whole lot I can do.  I put in a lot of effort in the beginning and let myself get incredibly upset about it, but it didn't help me and it didn't help the problem.  So now I'm just going to focus on being happy and enjoying my life.  Even though it has changed it's still awesome.   

The whole reason that my life is great is because of the people in it.   Sometimes I worry about the people I love not caring about me, but in the end they always prove that they do.  I went on a fabulous shopping trip with my sister, grandmother, and dad over the weekend and it was so much fun.  I loved getting to spend time with my family.  Let's not forget Don who is so wonderful and supportive to me, in spite of his MSN messenger typos.      Augusta has also been really awesome lately.  I think she's going through some similar confusions in her life and she's helped me out bunches.  Oh, and my mom is still and always will be one of the best people on Earth.  All the above-mentioned individuals make my life a million times better!!! 

Guess that's it for now.  Time to go consider possibly thinking about maybe doing some homework.   

Edited to add . . . Simmer down Jeni, you are wonderful and totally independent of Don Juan de Zedo!!!